At every turn in the road there have been a few surprises....and I don't mean the good kind wrapped up with a bow:( Well, yesterday, to put the icing on the cake.....my hubby went to have our taxes done! Considering I am an artist and VERY RIGHT BRAINED.....I muster the energy every year to become the accountant and get all my expenses in order along with all my little side earnings....
I sent Rog off feeling secure in the fact that I would be getting a nice fat check back (as I always do) and pondering what I wanted to do with that money this year!!!!!!!!! Maybe a trip to our beloved Oaxaca, Mex. or maybe that serger I have been longing for:D
At 12:30 I get a call from our CPA saying there is a little "snafoo" going on! It appears that when the teachers retirement system figured my retirement settlement....they didn't take out enough taxes and I will need to pay over 8,000.00 in taxes this year.....OMG!!!!! I could hardly catch my breath! That can't be right.......so we went over the entire tax deductions available....but...NO RELIEF@!@#@$ Well..............................there it was....................right from the horses mouth (so to speak). Not only have I been able to pay back every cent I ever owed to ANYBODY in the past two years.....I have also learned to live on Half of what I am used to! I have almost knocked myself over patting myself on the back! Well.....it is what it is.........I now have to consider taking a part time job just to pay the taxes on my retirement plan:(
O.K...........I have resolved myself to even a MORE THRIFTY life for the next year.....this might be the forced diet I needed to lose that 15 lbs....LOL I have always been a very positive person and I am sure I will use this as but one more challenge and enjoy getting through it:D
Now comes the "below the belt" hit that hurts more than the tax situation:( While thrifting the day before yesterday.....there....hanging on the rack of used children's clothing....were many of the clothes I made for one of my loved ones........I looked...and couldn't believe it! My heart sank.....I looked more closely....yes, they were my outfits, never worn or washed, hanging there with little price tags on them. Were they outgrown?....No, I just made them a couple of months ago:( I took a deep breath and tried not to look to upset.........there was this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach.....and....all I wanted to do was get out of the store without crying. I got to the car and tried to catch my breath. There is no challenge here, no resolution....just a broken heart.
I have been up the last two nights with hives.....worried and trying to understand these situations and coming up with solutions.....I am writing this because it seemed like getting it out might ease the anxiety of it all......Thanks so much for letting me vent! I don't normally like to let people see my hurt, but getting it out seems to have helped a little:D