i long to be in my studio making art.....morning, noon and night. i have so many fragments of paintings, collages and sketches floating around in my head. sometime i find it hard to concentrate on anything else for these images keep getting in the way. should i decide to stay home and spend the rest of my days content and creating? or will i be content if i have no funds to feed this hungrybeast? what to do? i want to be stimulated by the touch of my grandchildren, the smell of a great casserole cooking in the oven and the softtouch of the icing on that new dessert i made for dinner. want the sweet aroma of the starch pressed crisp on the front of my white blouse, the fragrance of fabreeze coming from the dryer and the sound of birds as they greet the sunrise. I will probably succomb to the worldly way of the almighty dollar....dinners by Schnucks, ironing done at the local dry cleaner, crunching minutes to love on my grandchildren, create art and take a quick shower! wish i was stronger and more of a risk taker, believing that things would work out fine even if i didn't have the 9 to 5! still pondering.