Wednesday, February 08, 2006

pondering...................

Treadmills
i long to be in my studio making art.....morning, noon and night. i have so many fragments of paintings, collages and sketches floating around in my head. sometime i find it hard to concentrate on anything else for these images keep getting in the way. should i decide to stay home and spend the rest of my days content and creating? or will i be content if i have no funds to feed this hungry beast? what to do? i want to be stimulated by the touch of my grandchildren, the smell of a great casserole cooking in the oven and the soft touch of the icing on that new dessert i made for dinner. want the sweet aroma of the starch pressed crisp on the front of my white blouse, the fragrance of fabreeze coming from the dryer and the sound of birds as they greet the sunrise. I will probably succomb to the worldly way of the almighty dollar....dinners by Schnucks, ironing done at the local dry cleaner, crunching minutes to love on my grandchildren, create art and take a quick shower! wish i was stronger and more of a risk taker, believing that things would work out fine even if i didn't have the 9 to 5! still pondering.

2 comments:

ntuart said...

oh, linda....i can so relate to what you are feeling....i quit work many years ago to stay at home with my kids, i still don't work and hope to earn money from my art soon......it is funny, once i was no longer in the working world my needs and wants seem to change and simplify. we gave up alot so i could stay at home with the kids, but what i got in return is worth so much more!

xxx's,
christine

sanso said...

Can't spend your whole life just doing one thing, teaching. Your creative side has always brought you an income, find peace in that.....
Remember the lilies of the field... they were provided for.
love, your sis